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I am missing all of my babies so much , every little thing is a massive task and i dont know what to say to people anymore , don't want to bring others down and whenever i feel like i want to talk about the twins , it hurts too much and i try to push it away and think about something else, feel horrible , i love them so much but it hurts.

Still sore and exhausted and have physical things going on and want to curl up somewhere until it stops and even after it does.

I feel overwhelmed x hoping tommorow is slightly easier to deal with x