Till now

Havent had the energy lately to post anything so thought i should come and leave an entry, still havent slept much adn am exhausted, had doctors appointment but couldnt be bothered going so have to make a new one, am aching and forgetting things and having trouble finding the motivation to do anything :(
I think i need to find a way to sleep with no nightmares, the nightmares is why i wont sleep, i dont want to see these things, i want to sleep with no bad dreams, i just dont know how.

Thinking i am depressed as the doctor thought :( i have anti-depressant but i dont think they are doing anything so need to ask when i go back, am feeling worse not better

hope everyone is well
xxooxx